Life is all about choices. Do I wear this shirt today or that dress? Do I get up and work out in the morning or do I spend more time in bed? Do I choose this career or do I try to get out of it? I am the classic Libra. It pains me to make decisions and I agonize over them until the bitter end. For years I regretted going to law school. I spent hundreds of thousands of dollars to achieve this education that, until recently, I believed had failed me. I wanted the big firm job, to pay off my student loans (and of course, acquire a new host of loans like a mortgage, car payment, luxury goods, etc) and “be happy.” Whatever that meant. I never did get that job. I still haven’t paid off all of my loans (and likely won’t for another 20 years) and never did buy my own house or condo. Sometimes things have a way of working themselves out. Either way, all of those choices I made lead me to where I am now…..
Which is sitting in my own, corner office in my own law firm. Happily blogging away because work is a tad bit slow at the moment, and not feeling one ounce of guilt about using “company time” or what have you. Life changes. Some things I swore I was done with I’ve gone back to. Some things are different. I love running my own business. I love being in charge of my fate. Granted, that fate is tied to getting clients and being able to put together a functioning business while maintaining an outside life.. That sounds like a challenge, but one I’ll gladly accept.
Life is too short to spend any longer trying to undo 11 years of history. I’ve decided to embrace it and move forward. Be the best me I can be in every way, and part of me is tied up in my attorney persona. 11 years is 1/3 of my entire life. 1/3 of my life I’ve spent chasing this. I like to think of this as a culmination of my experiences instead of going back to something I’ve long since passed. It is a new dream. It contains all of the success I’ve had with a future that is entirely mine. Not many people can say that. Everyone should say that. I wonder what life will be like in a year? The best thing to do is make all of the best choices I can at the time. Every day.
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